Depress over?

Its been 1 and a half mths since i've started my new job.
Overall, it doesnt seem as bad. Well, the bad part would be I have a super bad mentor.
One taught me well, but the other, somehow or rather just wants me to understand it by myself without even trying to explain to me the procedures. Okay, I did try to explore the ways to deal with them but somehow, the final result would be to head down and check with him for more info.

But shall not dwell into that.
Time has pass really fast.
Mommsy and little brother is leaving Singapore tonight for Hokkaido.
Okay, mayb i shall make this my honeymoon next time, since the boy likes Japan so much! =D
It will be left with just papa and me in the whole house.
Feeling slightly upset because there are bound to be things which i hate doing after a hectic day from work, like washing and cleaning of the house. But oh well, that wasnt a choice.
Because I have to clean them once every 2 days since theres only papa and me ard.

Depress is all I could feel right now. Not because mummy and brother are going for some fun and im stuck in this sunny (maybe rainy) island. But i felt like i've been neglected all this while.
How do i put this into words? I've got no idea.
I felt lost. Somehow lost in this world of terror.
Searching my way out of this maze, I have to make it thru all the mirrors and zombies.
But how?

I'm feeling so tired. And day by day, i felt like I'm living for the sake of living.
Enlighten me someone? ):

FML! Seriously.

Days hasnt been good recently. Everything is not in its smooth conditions.
Sometimes, giving people suggestions could ended up receiving nasty comments.
Okay, sometimes, trying to save my own backside also ended myself in horrible shit!
Okay, admit it, this is life!

We have to go thru this dont we? In life, there are bound to be lots of ups and downs. But somehow, this is going to bring me more into depression by the time happy things come about.
I hate ending myself in such situations. Its like a never ending backlogs for me to handle.

Work, has been good so far. Okay slacking most of the time i would say.
Mayb this is not the peak period where by I've got lots and lots of things to settle.
Hopefully that day will come real soon, otherwise i might just stay in this place completing books and books of word search!. Somehow, I love to see myself becoming busy, because by keeping myself busy, time pass faster. (Does that count as I'm dreading work? Okay, I'm not too sure either.)

Mixed feelings is all i could ever get when ever I find myself in weird situations like such.
But what else could I do to escape? I seriously have got no idea.
Not sleeping well, Feeling super moody -- Needed a drink really badly, Sweet tooth's acting up again, That just wanted to be alone is back to haunt me again. Everything just pump up all at one go, and yes, i do feel like crying much. All I could ever felt was that I felt so suffocated )):

Feeling Bluey!

Its a Friday today! And i should be shouting HAPPY TGIF instead of feeling bluey.
Superr moody i am! Seeing everyone having their leaves and heading abroad makes me want to go to ):
But too bad, because of my just changed job, I had no leave to spare. Whats more?
Even if i had leave to spare, who is going with me? There are so many places Ive been wanting to visit.
Taiwan(again), Hongkong(Again), Australia(Again), Hokkaido, Europe, Bali, Phuket(again)...
So many, yet i've got so little moolahs and time.

Well, I'm not complaining because I dislike my job, in fact im doing fine (:
I'm complaining because Im angry at myself for not being able to stay at a job and making it a stable place to be in ): Why is this always happening to me? Sometimes I just wish money could drop of the sky, but okay thats' just a dream, but i really wanted to be rich, so i could have more moolahs and time(that i will have to do time mgmt) to head to everywhere i wanted to go to.

I understand that there are so many things I will have to consider few years down the road.
But sometimes I'm asking myself, am i ready for all this? Some part of me ye, but some no. I'm too tired to think of anything at this moment. I just need a break. But somehow i dont foresee it coming like anytime sooner.


Today, I had a colleague who told me to save up my moolahs and head to US for my honeymoon next time.
I was thinking, how long do i really take to save all this? Omg! People can really travel super far and I'm really impressed at the way they could save money. Okay definitely not for me. I cant seem to save much, like anywhere or anytime I am at. Times like this i felt so much like a failure ):

I need to head out for a drink. Hopefully I will feel better ):
Gotta send my xiao bai out for servicing tmr and I will be carless for this weekend!
Hopefully i'll be able to drive my mom's car out =X

Time for a little blog!

Okay finally, at least blogging makes me feel better!
Seriously, I've not seen such hypocrite person in the world!
Oh well, now I understand why is it that all your friends are leaving you?
Or at least somehow not turning up for your ROM. Its because of the way you treat them.

This is not abt bad mouthing or okay mayb a tad bit!
But its because Im feeling so pissed!
It's my account and I could do what ever i wanted!
Thats me! (:

In the first place, you always stay put by your hub, not allowing him to even make friends (not girls). Well, even classmates you also can be so paranoid? So whats next?
Doesnt even allow him to drink when you guys are out? Which means he's not even allowed to even meet up with his besties for a little drink! So protective!

Treating friends as substitute and making them meet you only when your hub is away for school? How abt the rest of the days? Even playing MJ also can be controlled!
Seriously what kind of person are you? Okay, I wouldnt want to say. You know it yourself.

Somehow to me that, its true that all dreams are just dreams, they somehow will not turn into reality. And when they turn into reality, does that really means that they are all happy endings? Thn there will not be people suffering. But okay, continue to live in your own fairy tale world. Since it has got nth to do with me, why should I care? But wait, saying that people are envious which means this person is a bad ass, is a no no. Everyone has their own thinking. I know you are not dumb to not go ahead and do what ever translation and lying that oh its your friend thats doing the posting. WTF!

Im going to ban myself from replying you! Seriously!
Because I dont find it a point to do so. Just stay far away you pissing monster!