Mixed feelings

Finally, one heavy load off my mind.
Which is work! Im finally not working and started searching for jobs.

Its always not easy to find a job that we all love, but i just hope i could do that.
But than again, Ive got mixed feelings abt it.
We cant choose not to work. So how?

There's too much that im thinking.
To the point I really got no idea what am i suppose to do. I'm just too tired to think.
Staying at home makes me feel bored.
But if im out at work, its another different feeling.

Bkk in another 2 weeks time, you can actually see how fast time flies.
Oh well, before i forget, baby's marathon is coming.
Hmmm, too much to take note. I need a break to run thru all my thots.
All my feelings which are being mixed up.

Most importantly, I need a talk.
At times like these, I wish i could sleep forever and not thinking abt anything.
Period.

Helpless moment

At times like this I felt so helpless. Sometimes I just wish I could feel better without thinking. But I can't. :((

Was it me otherwise what was it?
I feel terrible.
I need to do something that I wont start thinking all over again. I'm really tired. I wish I'm dead at this particular moment.

Mayb right now at this moment, Its all about me. Im not sure how long can I hold on. Another week more, and im officially jobless. Gotta start looking for jobs.

Gonna close my eyes now and try to sleep. Good night people. <3