Mixed feelings

Finally, one heavy load off my mind.
Which is work! Im finally not working and started searching for jobs.

Its always not easy to find a job that we all love, but i just hope i could do that.
But than again, Ive got mixed feelings abt it.
We cant choose not to work. So how?

There's too much that im thinking.
To the point I really got no idea what am i suppose to do. I'm just too tired to think.
Staying at home makes me feel bored.
But if im out at work, its another different feeling.

Bkk in another 2 weeks time, you can actually see how fast time flies.
Oh well, before i forget, baby's marathon is coming.
Hmmm, too much to take note. I need a break to run thru all my thots.
All my feelings which are being mixed up.

Most importantly, I need a talk.
At times like these, I wish i could sleep forever and not thinking abt anything.
Period.

Helpless moment

At times like this I felt so helpless. Sometimes I just wish I could feel better without thinking. But I can't. :((

Was it me otherwise what was it?
I feel terrible.
I need to do something that I wont start thinking all over again. I'm really tired. I wish I'm dead at this particular moment.

Mayb right now at this moment, Its all about me. Im not sure how long can I hold on. Another week more, and im officially jobless. Gotta start looking for jobs.

Gonna close my eyes now and try to sleep. Good night people. <3

Unpredictable life!

Sometimes things are just unpredictable. All of us just got to accept and appreciate what we have on hands and by our side. And of course I do.

There isn't a need for luxurious clothing, perfect tai tai life. But as long as my family and friends are all happy and healthy I'll be glad.

In life, we'll be going through many ups and downs. Like myself, after graduation, I lead a normal like by working every 9 to 530. Going out shopping with the boy and even with friends. Life was too short. I just want to spend time doing things that I always had interest in. But how?

I do admit I do not have lots of close friends. ESP those that are really there for me when I need them. Does the problem lies in me? Prolly I got to ask the question myself. But than again, wanting to do what a person like is not easy. You have to go thru lots of courage and time and patience to make it work out.

I always ask myself, will I be able to? Hmmm I will try my best till the day I no longer can't take it. I suppose? At times like this, I feel so tired. I wonder why are my family and Friends feeling so happy everyday? While I somehow couldn't feel happy or couldnt just feel any better?

I miss the old me.
I wish I could turn back time.
But oh well it's just too late. I shall learn to look forward to a better life and be a better person. :))

Jiayou Jessie!