Story of a magical pot

Somehow or rather, this has become so much personal.
Everything thats coming onto me is unbearable, and yet no one could understand.

Sometimes I felt as thou Im a magical pot.
Why magical pot? It always reminds me of the Aladdin story, they rub the magical pot, a genie appear and grant them their wish.
Thats just now i felt.

 My bro has gotten back his A level results. Not quite bad i would say.
Kudos to him, that he is able to make it to local uni. Mom has always been on the bias side.
To the point, even studying, she also consult my dad abt what my bro shld go abt studying.
Planning his future routes for him. Asking my dad what to study to ensure he can earn lots of money next time. So what about me? Back then when im in this stage, which ive got to think about what I wanted to do to ensure my future would be as good. Who doesnt want to earn lots of money? Who doesnt want to live good life? Who doesnt like to keep shopping and dont even think abt other things? My mom left all this to me. I had to be the one telling her where Im schooling and she doesnt even bother abt what I am studying. Yes even thou I told her tourism, but she doesnt think as much for me as compare to my brother. She doesnt talk abt it.

Im just like a magical pot, whenever they need my help, they will try to find all means to look for me. Search high and low. Need to to help them to check out on pricing, get my to help them book tickets, etc. Im not complaining that because im just a magical pot, im unhappy. But Im feeling depressed because Im being treated that way. I do have feelings. I do have pain which i feel whenever im being treated that way. I do have pain in me which i feel that I'm no longer a part of the family. But what else could i do?

I could no longer speak to anyone abt this. Because no one will be there to guide me, everyone will only be there to tell me to let it go. But because things arent happening at your end? At times like this, i wish i could disappear forever. But who can feel me?

I dont wish to be this magical pot anymore. I want to be me. I want to be loved and dote too )):
Im too tired. I feel so drained. I could no longer feel that warmth still exist.